Crap end to a rough week

This week has been particularly rough. Kid had a rough day yesterday, and my day yesterday was made rough by that on top of work stuff.

Today I could hardly focus, and as of 6pm, my computer decided to fuck up. It's behaving a lot like the one we eventually had to return, except that one was within the 30 day window and this one I've had almost 2 months.

On the one hand, I finally figured out what might be causing it, but it's rebooting every 10 minutes or less making it impossible to troubleshoot. And had to reset windows which means that my files are intact but I need to install every other fucking thing.

I'm in tears tonight over this. The kid consoled me with hugs and was understanding that I wasn't feeling talkative tonight. Moments like that make me feel I've done something right with parenting. 

But I'm stressed and sad and frustrated so husband took over and told me to go to sleep. So i will after brain dumping here.

Oh and to make my day more awesome, it's period starting day, which means I'll probably have shit-tastic cramps tomorrow. 

Tired

I'm so exhausted right now. The kid had a rough day yesterday because they miss their friends. I had a rough day because they had a rough day, and because things seemed to be particularly a pain in the ass at work. 

Everything has felt like a fight with the kid lately. Getting work done (which now has a rule that every argument means 5 minutes less of video game time, because I'm so fucking sick of it). The violin, which they were so excited to get months ago, is now a chore that they never want to do, even with me. The kid can't commit to anything, and it's frustrating. Basically doesn't want to do anything where they can't 100% set all the rules.

• Wanted to do soccer, played one season, then dropped out after like the 2nd practice the 2nd season. Has occasionally whined to do it again, but was miserable to deal with in getting to practices for the end of the 1st season and beginning of 2nd, so...yeah, no.
  
  
• Enjoyed swimming, but doesn't want to try doing anything that involves getting face wet (won't even TRY)
  
  
• Was super excited to try violin and/or trumpet. We gave them a choice of one (and I said that we could revisit possibly doing both after they showed commitment). It hasn't even been a full year, and they never practice at home (rarely, if I'm also doing it, but I practice more than they do), and now wants a trumpet. My foot is down on that one, as much as I'd love them to have music be a huge part of their lives. They want a trumpet, they need to show that they can work on it first, so they need to prove with the violin. 

I can hardly focus today. It's at least quiet enough that I should be working on the major task that I can hardly ever do for work, and I'm having trouble bringing myself to do it right now. 

I'm just so fucking tired right now. 

Day...who the fuck knows

Summary of the evening:

Child *gets upset that they can only have a little candy*

Family *watches Mandalorian*

Child *throws fit that they can't run around before storytime*

Child *argues about washing after saying there's something sticky on them*

Child *sobs in room because storytime is cancelled due to ongoing attitude of all night.*

Happy fucking Monday.